I hate what I do. I have said this before, but yesterday I was at work and for the first time in 15 years I suddenly thought to myself that what I do is disgusting. I scrape the stuff off people's teeth that they are too lazy to clean up on their own. It's gross.
I have never been bothered by this before. Do you think it's a sign? Maybe it comes from cleaning up after people all day, every day. I think I want something more out of what I do. Some kind of fulfillment or what not. Hmm...
I have been feeling a little low about work lately. I only work relief and I was hoping to be getting more days. On the flip side, Dan has been filling his schedule right up. I am glad for that. But there is a part of me that feels so guilty watching him work his butt off all the time when I could really help out with a few days here and there. Silly. He told me yesterday that I needed to stop and be grateful that the Lord is letting him work so I can be home with the kids. I realized that we have for so long depended on my stints at work to get by, which is okay, but he is so ready to be the one to truly support our family. He is the hardest worker I know. He would do just about anything and work pretty much all the time in order to take care of us. I am so proud of him and grateful to have him as my hubby and my children's father.
Of course, I feel guilty now about hating work. But I love my work at home. I guess he was right, I'm so fortunate to be able to do it. Smart guy! But I am looking for a career change eventually. Any suggestions?
You would be an excellent teacher!! And, you're so musical - you could teach piano and make a ton of money and STILL stay at home with your kidlets. If you tap into homeschooling families, you could teach piano while your kids are at school - imagine that!! I know that no matter what you do, you're going to be great. How lucky you are to have Dan bringing home the bacon - yeah Dan!!
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